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tomorrow is my last official day of au pair work AND the weather suddenly went from -4 degrees fahrenheit (-20 celsius) to 37.5 degrees fahrenheit! it seriously feels like paradise; i don't think it has been above freezing for weeks now. and and and i can hear the snow & ice melting outside. haha, really, such an amazing feeling. also, it definitely helps that i will be out of here soon. my friend chris invited me to stay at his apartment for a little bit, so i'll be moving out of potsdam and INTO the city/berlin. living alone (in a basement) has been a bit rough, especially during the winter, so it will be refreshing to have a change of scenery.

i'll be traveling to the US soon... dc & california, so i can't wait to see everyone again. i'll be studying in germany, argentina & india this year, so i think the next chance i'll get to be home will be next december :(

leaving the au pair job is a huge relief, but definitely bittersweet... i will miss the kids for sure, but i'm so ready to move on in life. i've never felt so low, cold & alone. i pretty much just felt like a servant everyday for the past 8 months... but there were good moments throughout and other beautiful people that showed up (like the family that i dogsit for, who are actually my landlords too... or my friend chris who has always been there). i'm actually not too sad to leave berlin... i did finally get to know a really cool guy recently, but i've accepted that it won't work out because of me leaving... and there is no reason to push it/force it to work out. i'm down with just enjoying our time together before i leave, but apparently he can't handle that/is afraid he'll get too attached. it's alright tho because he's probably right. i'm sure i'll meet some cool people in freiburg... but i have to find a WG (shared flat) first! i've contacted about 15-20 people so far, and have only really heard back from one.

i also recently purchased some deepak chopra audiobooks and it has brought a lot of peace, calmness & optimism into my life. i hope it sticks around :) i'll try starting yoga once i start school, and i really wish i could go vegan, or at least try it out, but the last time i did that, i caved in after 2 days and ate a large cheese pizza... it was just too difficult (mentally). haha
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electioneering
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Time:2010-01-28 04:37 pm (UTC)
yay! when are you coming back?
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rockiegirl
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Time:2010-01-28 08:09 pm (UTC)
let's do alk 3 & cursive in MD. i'll be back most likely mid-feb... til late march? we'll see. i don't have plane tickets yet. eeep
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themoongoddess
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Time:2010-01-28 04:43 pm (UTC)
can't wait to see you :) you said you'll be here around your birthday right?
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rockiegirl
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Time:2010-01-28 08:11 pm (UTC)
i think i'll stay in brrrrlin for my birthday! i should be back around valentine's day! <3 <3 <3 ohhh and i had a weird dream last night that you and casey broke up, but that you never told me :(... weird :-/ i have the strangest dreams sometimes that seem to come out of nowhere.
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themoongoddess
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Time:2010-01-28 09:22 pm (UTC)
aww yay :)
haha that is really strange - I would tell you I promise!
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insaneindabrain
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Time:2010-01-29 06:58 pm (UTC)
Continue our streak of not hanging out when you're home?
Great thanks Julie.

So uh Baltimore this time for sure
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rockiegirl
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Time:2010-01-29 11:08 pm (UTC)
bmore for sure! lets go party with sarah... maybe you remember her?!
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insaneindabrain
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Time:2010-01-30 05:04 pm (UTC)
Vaguely... but the more the merrier!
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